Be the Change

One of my favorite quotes since getting clean is: "BE the change you wish to see in the world". It's a great motto, and a really nice way to say: "Quitcher Bitchin'" (Which by the way, USED to be my motto...had the keychain, the whole bit.) Not only is my new motto much more Zen, it's much more ME.

Being positive has been a wonderful gift in my recovery. The foundation for my gratitude was built there. My Nia White Belt Intensive helped me to take positive thinking to a whole new level.

I'm very excited about a new venture I'm pursuing. Back in March I was invited to a "Women's Leadership Breakfast" and I donated a Nia DVD and a certificate for 5 free classes as door prizes. The woman who won the 5 free classes also happens to be one of the Sisters of St. Agnes. Awesome Lady, 70 some years old. LOVE her. She is a rebel nun. She has done time for peaceful demonstrations. (And I think if was federal time...well, that was the sentence anyway...)

Last week it was her first class and only she and I were there. I got a chance to talk with her a bit. Lo and behold, she's on the board at one of our local outpatient treatment facilities for women (called "the Arc"). I told her that I was a recovering addict/alcoholic with 8 years clean. She was thinking maybe Nia could be good for these women in the program at "the Arc". She asked me what I thought?? I said: "I THINK NIA IS GREAT FOR EVERYBODY!" Then she asked me if I'd be willing to teach it there. Ummm..."YES"!

So, since then I've been on this amazing creative journey of being led by Spirit, and doing the next right thing. It's been two or three days of pretty much solid creating---creating this new routine with music that moved me through my own recovery. It's called "Invincible" (Pat Benatar). I fight the little demon that keeps telling me "that's dumb" and keep pushing through. It's Divine and I trust it. It's going to be freakin' AWESOME when it's done. It's what I'm supposed to do next. No doubt.

No coincidences!

Another good thing: I'm officially off my own back as far as feeling like I'm not getting anywhere. I keep comparing myself to people with much higher belt levels, and with much more experience--many more years of practice. "Compare and Despair". We all have a very individualized curriculum from the universe. I believe that. But, PATIENCE with myself or "the Plan", isn't something I've ever been very good at. I want it all, and I want it NOW! And if I don't get it...it's because I'M doing something very, very WRONG! If I'm a child of God, why do I always assume I'm doing something TERRIBLY WRONG?? Does that just mean I qualify for the program? OR that I'm human?? (GASP)

The process is so much more fun when I'm on my way DOWN the hill!!! As Mark L. says..."Weeeeee!"

The change I wish to see in the world is people being positive, loving themselves as they are, moving/dancing/loving/JOYFUL and clean. It's a great place to start. I've got it--I am that change, and I'm almost ready to bring it to the world. (I'll post when the routine is complete!!)